I had disappointing news today. I know, I know... this is a negative statement.
“Isn't this blog
all about you being positive, Jess, and about making happy changes because you are going to
be so annoyingly positive all the time, so you can prove to us that it works? That if you
just talk positive, think positive and expect positive, you will GET positive?”
That’s what it’s supposed to be about. But I am only human, just starting on
this path of improvement and there will be trial and error. So, unless you have
a more positive way to phrase the above message, I really don’t know how to
avoid the negativity.
I had another ultrasound today. The hormones are still going up,
my body is playing all sorts of tricks on me (complete with a morning sickness
and fatigue) and to be honest… the psychics words did me in: I was hopeful
again. I called the doctor and she agreed I needed another ultrasound today, to
see if the empty sac was now actually showing signs of a growing baby.
May I introduce to you: “Tool Tuesday”! Every Tuesday I will
talk about another
technique to get you (eh… me) a little closer to the
life of our dreams.
Obviously, I introduce this exciting new weekly item (insert hint of sarcasm) so at
least I will have something to write about.
But my motivation is twofold. The
real reason is: I need to work on my willpower. What, that surprises you, after
See, when God was allocating the attributes that would later
form my character, she was really generous with the daydreaming, but extremely
frugal on the determination.
For example: I have shelves and shelves full of motivational books of
some kind. With every new book I purchase, I can just feel the excitement and the promise of better things
ahead! More creativity, greater abundance, learning to love myself better, be a
more spiritual parent, be healthier, books on the law of attraction and Zen books on how to
just appreciate ‘the now’. I pretty much own the entire “self help” section of Barnes and Nobles.