happinessoverhaul

Showering once is not enough.

You don't wake up one morning, take a shower and leave it at that for weeks, only to complain three weeks later that you stink, and thus proclaim that taking showers doesn't work!

You don’t go to the gym once, do 100 sit-ups for your abs and never return to them again, only to complain a few months later – looking at your belly flab – that sit ups don’t work!

Oh... who am I kidding?

• I so ate the M&M's. 
• I drank wine.
• I cried and cried some more. Then I yelled at my husband and blamed him for my stagnant life.
• I moped around the house all day.
• I googled "blighted ovum" and recurrent miscarriage and other sad stories of other sad women, until I reached the very last page of the world wide web
• I cried some more.
• I tortured myself by thinking of all the babies born to friends in the last few years, while I was having five flippin’ miscarriages in a row.
• I felt really sorry for myself that all my friends are going away for the winter break next week, while I am left behind on this God-forgotten island with nothing to look forward to
• I deeply hated my blog all of a sudden. I don't want to ‘try to be happy’ and I don't want feel committed to anything. I just want to feel miserable. 
• Then I cried some more, because really... nobody even bothers to read this blog anyway.
• I cried some more.
• I fell asleep at 9.00 pm drained and exhausted.
• I didn't brush my teeth. After all those M&M's.

Tool Tuesday: EFT (or: how to feel better without eating all the M&M's)

I had disappointing news today. I know, I know... this is a negative statement. 

“Isn't this blog all about you being positive, Jess, and about making happy changes because you are going to be so annoyingly positive all the time, so you can prove to us that it works? That if you just talk positive, think positive and expect positive, you will GET positive?”

That’s what it’s supposed to be about. But I am only human, just starting on this path of improvement and there will be trial and error. So, unless you have a more positive way to phrase the above message, I really don’t know how to avoid the negativity.

I had another ultrasound today. The hormones are still going up, my body is playing all sorts of tricks on me (complete with a morning sickness and fatigue) and to be honest… the psychics words did me in: I was hopeful again. I called the doctor and she agreed I needed another ultrasound today, to see if the empty sac was now actually showing signs of a growing baby.

Tool Tuesday

May I introduce to you: “Tool Tuesday”! Every Tuesday I will talk about another  tool or  technique to get you (eh… me) a little closer to the life of our dreams.

Obviously, I introduce this exciting new weekly item (insert hint of sarcasm) so at least I will have something to write about.

But my motivation is twofold. The real reason is: I need to work on my willpower. What, that surprises you, after reading this?

See, when God was allocating the attributes that would later form my character, she was really generous with the daydreaming, but extremely frugal on the determination.

For example: I have shelves and shelves full of motivational books of some kind. With every new book I purchase, I can just feel the excitement and the promise of better things ahead! More creativity, greater abundance, learning to love myself better, be a more spiritual parent, be healthier, books on the law of attraction and Zen books on how to just appreciate ‘the now’. I pretty much own the entire “self help” section of Barnes and Nobles.

And that’s not all.