happinessoverhaul

Exhibit A (this stuff does work, I'm just using it wrong)

Feeling this negative and blue… it was only a matter of time before I would start attracting more negative things into my life, right? The real estate agent of our landlord just called (the house we rent is on the market) and tomorrow there will be a house showing.
It could not have been a worse time. It’s the end of winter, we need a good ole’ fashioned weekend-long spring cleaning. Getting rid of stuff. You know… somewhere in March the rest of the family helps. Not this afternoon! Not alone! Now besides having cramps of miscarrying, I'm also having conniptions and stress because I’ll need to bend over backwards to get this place representable within 24 hours, while all I want to do is sulk some more and walk around in my husband's oversized bathrobe in the middle of a weekday. I was only planning on getting dressed to pick up my daughter from school. Possibly making an emergency stop for more M&M's.

How to lift your vibrations (or: what a difference a day makes)

Enough with the pity party. I don’t think I will figure out the bigger questions of life by tonight, unless I drink the whole bottle of wine and get all philosophical. And I won’t do that, even though I want to. After all, the doctor told me that this pregnancy is pretty much a done deal so technically speaking I might as well be drinking again. I'm just sitting here in limbo. The doctor's office never called me back with my blood results. So even though I know it's over, I will be sitting all weekend with the nagging little thought that it aint over ‘till the fat lady sings. Or calls, in this case (not that I'm implying that my doctor is fat or anything…).

Somebody please explain. Is it my own fault?

Today I miscarried. Most likely, that is.

Here's a concept I struggle with: where does miscarriage fit in with the Law of Attraction? Is it my own fault if something I want with all my heart and soul, still goes wrong? Time and again?

Yes, I guess, if you look at the basic principles:

1. What you focus most of your attention on - whether positive or negative, and whether you want it or not - is what you attract to yourself, to your experience. In other words, you attract what you think about;

2. You attract to you energy which is of a similar vibration. 'Like Energy' attracts 'Like Energy' .  So if you get up on the wrong side of the bed, all grumpy, you can count on it that today you will miss the bus, find out at the super market check out that you forgot your wallet and when you come home the cat has puked on the sofa).

I really struggle with this. I don't just mean the miscarriages. I mean, with the deeper explanation behind it.

I'll show you mine, if you show me yours.

After I make my 'old fashioned' vision board with paper, scissors and glue this Sunday I will move on to making a digital version. Girl, I am going Godspeed now. You want change? How fast can you handle it?

Look at this clip that I dusted off. When I first discovered it, probably two years ago, I sent it to all my friends and family. May be twice. Possibly three times. That's how excited I was about the energy of this slightly neurotic but brilliant guy (common', you wish you thought of something that simple....).

Here's one of my favorites. Quick, fast and to the point. See if it inspires you too. And if you DO make one, will you share? I will show you mine, if you show me yours!

Vision boarding (it's a verb now!) to help set goals

Did you notice the tag line under my blog title? It says “manifesting the life of my dreams, one thought at the time”.

I should make it clear that, on average, I am a pretty happy person. Indeed, I am blessed with my health, family, roof over my head, blablabla... I KNOW I have enough to be grateful for. And I am. Really.

So, is it a good life? By all means. Is it a great life? Sometimes. Is it a life extraordinaire? Well, I wouldn’t put it that way. After all, I don’t live in a mansion, I don’t spontaneously fly my mom and sister over for a shopping spree in New York (my treat), I have not written any best sellers, I don’t have weekly couples massages with my husband, I have not taken a month off to live in an ashram and I have not bought my daughter a horse yet. 

Do I aspire these goals? May be. I don’t know.

See, that’s the thing with my life. I don’t really KNOW what it is that I desire. I don’t really know how to dream BIG. I am too modest. I used to think it’s ungrateful of me to ask the Universe for more. I am already this blessed, isn’t it greedy to want a brand spanking’ new SUV while there are people who can’t even afford to take the bus? But then I discovered the real housewives of Orange County and decided I am not nearly asking enough.