happinessoverhaul

DO NOT EVER MESS WITH THE "CURSED HOW'S" (like I did)

I vibed low all day yesterday and today.
I cried, I felt completely down, depressed, blue, whatever you may call it. Out of sync. It started last weekend, when I received some upsetting news from Holland. Then came Monday. My husband went to work, the kids left for school and I was left behind with nothing but the dishes, the laundry, the taxes and the most overwhelming sense of loss. The miscarriage is over. It's gone. I'm drained.

Melodramatic and like a terrible actress in a B-movie, I let myself slide down onto the kitchen floor and I sobbed and sobbed until I realized that it was really cold on those tiles.

Ask and you shall receive?

Not even an hour after I panicked had a heart-to-heart with the Universe, I received an e-mail from an acquaintance of ours (a real estate agent) suggesting a POSSIBLE house for us right down the road. Did I ever tell you I LOVE the road that we live on? Gratitude baby, gratitude!

I looked at the pictures in the email and my heart jumped with joy! YES Universe! This is what I mean! A clean, fresh house with lots of white and pretty wooden floors. 

Can I have a word with you?

Dear Universe,

This would be a good time to show me some lovin’! I have been a good girl, especially if you consider the tremendous amount of stress I’m under. I'm trying to live by all your rules. I know you don’t want me to focus on any negative aspects in my life, like eh… still waiting for my body to expel this invisible baby or eh… say…. the possibility of being homeless this summer. Just to name two of my current anxieties. Shit, I wonder if I’ll be ‘punished’ just for saying it. Miscarriage. Homeless. Recession. Depression. Bad words. Go wash your mouth. Go watch your vision board one hundred times. Write down your positive affirmations until your hand is blue and cramping. Whatever you do, do not vibrate negativity. Go be happy, dammit!

Tool Tuesday: How to make a slideshow vision board

I received many emails and compliments on my slide show vision board.
(I want comments people, comments, not emails, but any kind of interest is appreciated, because really… I used to think that I suffered from Attention Deficit Disorder, thinking it meant I wasn’t getting enough attention…not that I have much attention… what were we talking about again? Oh right, the slide show vision board).

Some of you wanted to know if it was really that much work. Does it matter, really? How much is it worth to you to attract the love of your life? The job of your dreams? Money like water. Or an audi Q7? You've got to put some work in! If only half of my vision board will manifest, it will have been worth every minute I put into it. Besides, it was FUN to do. And bonus: I feel uplifted and excitement for the future when I watch it.

What do you have to loose (besides the chance of a better life)?
So I made you a little tutorial:

My new butt.

In an ultimate attempt to lift my mood this weekend, I decided to work on that vision board. Will you beIieve I spent over 20 hours on it and I am still NOT done? It took me hours to find just the right pictures. I searched the web as if my life depended on it. (And in a way, I actually think it does. After all, I want the Universe to know EXACTLY what it is that I want. I mean, if I say "dream house", does the Universe know my dream house is light and bright, spacious, with a huge yard and several fireplaces? I don't want to take any risks...).