happinessoverhaul

Feeling hopeless? Sad? Overwhelmed? Stressed? All of the above?

IT'S ALL AN ILLUSION, PEOPLE!

Watch this video, I am liking it a lot! Not so much what they're talking about (because - if you're anything like me and you're really into this law of attraction stuff, you have heard it a million times before, although... hey, will you believe he is even touching this topic? "How are you doing? I AM IN CONTROL, thanks for asking, how are you?").

However, it's Monday morning repetition is the key to success, so it can't hurt to watch for a few minutes. Plus, you HAVE to see the little card trick he does (or actually, our mind plays on us).

Where can I get some of these cards? I know some people who can use the daily reminder!

I risk, therefore I am.

I finally did my "about me" thingy. There, on the right side of the blog, above my picture.

When Lexi and I did our blogging course this winter, the teacher mentioned several times that my "about me" stuff was missing.

It's  not that I didn't want to fill it in, I just didn't know what else to say about myself. After all, I had already made an ass of myself here.

Lexi suggested I would point out to you that I am from Holland and therefore you should read this blog with a dutch accent. But that wasn't enough. So I just left it blank. Last night I finally got some inspiration, sparked by a question of my 7 year old.

Go on then... read it for yourself! And come back to let me know what the biggest risk was you ever took. (yeah... now you have to go over there and see what I'm talking about). 

GRATITUDE: the email that lifted my spirit

From a dear friend this week:

Jess, for some reason I was just remembering the first time I ever saw you - I think it was at Laura Etners day care, before we even met. I remember you had this colorful scarf around your head and your hair was all piled up in it and you were dropping Imani and heading towards Featherstone to take pottery class. I just remember thinking, "ok, that girl needs to be my friend!".

Not sure where it came from, but I remembered it. I do recall feeling a real swagger to your energy, like a confident stride saying "I don't care about what all you country bumpkins are up to, I'm getting my groove on today".

I did think all women on the island were country bumpkins back then... now I am one myself. Come on... you'd think I would be into crochet if I still lived in AMSTERDAM?

My kinda crack.

Knitting, crochet, any repetitive craft really, is like meditating to me. It calms my neurotic monkey mind, it settles me down and it gets me into flow.

That I end up with a cute new throw for my sofa, is an added bonus. This one has a while to go before it will resemble anything like a blanket, and it might just end up in my big box of other UFO's (Un Finshed Objects), but hey... at least I'm distracted in the  meantime.

DO NOT EVER MESS WITH THE "CURSED HOW'S" (like I did)

I vibed low all day yesterday and today.
I cried, I felt completely down, depressed, blue, whatever you may call it. Out of sync. It started last weekend, when I received some upsetting news from Holland. Then came Monday. My husband went to work, the kids left for school and I was left behind with nothing but the dishes, the laundry, the taxes and the most overwhelming sense of loss. The miscarriage is over. It's gone. I'm drained.

Melodramatic and like a terrible actress in a B-movie, I let myself slide down onto the kitchen floor and I sobbed and sobbed until I realized that it was really cold on those tiles.